Another weekend

Several of my friends down here have said bye to their significant others and gone thru the most emotions one can go thru in one day. I know we have a little while yet but all of a sudden I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I know the day will come when he comes home and says I have orders. I am trying to stay strong not only for myself but for our daughter. We already know the date for training and that will be here before you know it. As I drive thru post daily you can tell just how many are gone due to little traffic. I've driven by as some were having their good byes and end up tears streaming down my face.

One of the worse things to me anyway, is when someone says "Well at least it is ONLY for 12 months instead of 15", while I am very grateful for that it is still 12 months that anything can happen in, it is 12 months out of our lives, 12 months that he won't see his daughter and see her grow. Like I have said in the past we knew this would happen but until you actually see it in writing or hear it on the news, you have no idea of how it hits you. You feel like a ton of bricks has just landed on your chest.

Our daughter and I have been trying to keep busy by going to the pool, but as I sit there while she is swimming I look around and see all the mom's and dad's who are there with their kids and know they are basically doing the same thing. Just trying to get thru another day. People also need to realize that just because this is an election year and they can say and promise all they want, troop withdrawl is not going to happen overnight.